I put all our memories in a box. Whether it's movie tickets, train tickets, museum tickets in Paris and even all your presents. I put them in a box and hide them in a place where nobody will ever find them. That's how our story ends, in a box. I do not know if I still have the strength to reopen it, to start over again, to forgive you once again for acting as if ... as if I would never have thrown under a bus for you. I do not know what to do to hold you back and I do not even know if I really want to do it. Everyone can say that you're just making me suffer, that I should stop it is not worth it anymore, I just feel like he does not know you like me know and that in reality you would not be able to hurt me intentionally. It's very likely that I'm looking for excuses, but I can not fully agree that we need an end to everything and so to our history too. I have probably forgiven you too much, I have always taken on myself and I have probably given you too much freedom by giving you my heart. But now everything is in a box and I do not have the heart anymore.
And maybe I should be satisfied with what we have and give up on what we'll ever have. Maybe I should stop being so melodramatic and laugh when you tell me about your girlfriends while enjoying each of your smiles. I should probably stop thinking about tomorrow and tell me we're here, you and me, and that's all that matters. No matter if we are ever together, whether we wear the label of a couple or not, I just want to enjoy these moments of happiness that are ours and tell me that, I'm lucky, lucky to count in someone's eyes even if it's not quite the way I want it. No doubt I would never be the girl I always wanted for you, but I would always be that special girl, not the most important, but special all the same. So I do not want it to stop, I want it to continue like this and I want to hang on to you with all my strength because it feels so good. I want to stop asking all these questions and tell me that tomorrow does not matter as long as I'm with you today and that right now, I'm happy to share those moments with you. I will meet someone else who will probably erase all the feelings I have for you, but in the meantime I want to continue to be that person for you, because I need it and the happiness that you bring me enough already enough.